In another conversation with myself

And when the day passed by without having a talk with the one, I released what a parasite I am. Each day each hour each moment i am used to sharing with you. The mere feeling of distance kills me. But when in back of my mind i thought of it, I questioned myself ("WHY") Why we get used to some person like this ??  Why it is that we can't imagine our lives without some people ? Why the feeling of distance fears us ??  What is that feeling of insecurity ???    Are we humans so dependent ??  And now as on today when I thought 10 years away from home will make me independent and self-reliable. I forgot that phases of life bring different people in different form of dependencies. First mom then dad then brother, and later on friends. And after a time, might be my partner and at some point of time it will be our children.  There is a phrase ("Akele aaye hai, akele jaenge")but do we still have to know the hypocrisy of this line.  Yes we come alone and die...

Do I love this guy? I ask myself the question, My inner voice says you love him more than you love yourself.He is the one I’ll give all my last bites too and pretend I don’t mind..even when I hate doing it. He is the one I would wait for, even though I’ve already given up on waiting for people in life coz I know he will come for sure even if late.He is the one I would forgive even when he doesn’t say sorry!! He is the one I’ll grant permission to take me for granted, coz I know, what I mean to him. He is the one who doesn’t always show emotions and I’m gonna be fine with it, even though I like people around me to be expressive of how they feel for me. He is the one whom I want as a CONSTANT in my life!! I have found a friend in him, a friend I want to keep forever. I choose to see the good in him over the bad. I know he has a beautiful heart, full of love even if he pretends otherwise sometimes. When I think of future, I see him standing beside me and more than that I want to be the pe...