In another conversation with myself

She sucks at telling how she feels. and on most days, she will just look at you blankly and not say a word. your phone calls will have uncomfortable silences in between. both of you won’t say a word. then there will be days when she won’t shut up. the two of you will laugh and keep talking until it’s 6 am. but if you know her, you know that she would be breaking inside and you won’t know. She’d be sad and still she’d laugh at your jokes. She’d be falling apart and still she will hug you tight. She will be tired, and yet she’d walk all the way to your place. She will stay awake just to watch you fall asleep. but if you know her, you know how little things hurt her. and on those days, she will cry. She will weep. She will hold you tight as if you’re the last ray of sunshine before an eclipse. and on those days, let her rest her head on your lap and hum her favorite song. on those days, whisper that you love her when she’d be falling asleep. on those days, just hug her tight till she’d ...

You think getting in relationship is easy, I  mean it is, the hard part is losing it. Relationship can be very difficult and I thought otherwise till I clued into realisation to spending your life with someone. You're entire life with someone. You don't have your own bedroom, bathroom,your clothes,your food anymore.You don't have your dignity.. actually it is gone. Your life - shared with someone. Don't worry, that's scares me too, but the happy realization of it is someone that you love. Someone that is going to make these things worth sharing. So now you have that little hope in relationship again, let me crash it. Bcoz ruining a relationship is preety easy in theory but hard on everyone. so how you do it. 1. Kill the fun One of the best part about dating and finding someone new, trying new things, exploring, adventuring and playing games and doing a whole bunch of stuff that's get you really excited. Well the one day where you find yourself crashing i...

what a tragedy love makes us all all our stories are alike but our pain becomes so different, so unknown to the other. some, after the heartbreak, still believe that ‘The One’ is out there somewhere. and others, who have never been in love, are still afraid of it. to be in love is to become dependent, before love can teach you to be independent. love forces another hand into yours and says, walk with him. and when you’ve grown accustomed to the linings of the palm, the flesh of him skin love withdraws and says, for the rest of your days, you only will have a memory to remember him by. love and all its nuances come in different words, languages, and ways. some lovers are like Deepak from Masaan – they don’t know how to love, and they’ve not put a lot of thought into it either. but when love happens, and when they do love, they do it right. with utmost care. to them, their lover comes with the label: handle with care. but love kills all the Deepaks of the world quickly and make them wond...

 Subject: - To the ex I don’t hate As I sit down to write this letter, my first thoughts are, I hope you’re doing well. I hope you’re happy in your life. I mean it. I do. It’s been long time for the break-up, uff? It’s been a ride of a lifetime. If I look back in time, I can remember all the things we did together and to each other. Instead of ‘babu-shona’ called by our own names, we’ve come a long way. I’m a techie now. And you’re in a different part of the world, doing what you’ve always wanted to do. I could start our story from the day when we first met,Young and foolishly in love. We believed that you and I are going to be each other’s happy ending, that we will be together forever. You know, people make plans. They see a life a house, two kids, a lovely wife/husband, and a happily-ever-after. And then, before you can get that life with your first love, life happens. It’s been long time we broke up. I remember the time where I resented you. Time I spent being miserable. No one...

We’re a generation of broken people. we take things either too seriously or casually. we open our hearts, love with everything we have, travel 10kms just to get an date with them, or we shut people out, ghost them, and watch Netflix all day. We are not the first generation to be going through several crises at once – unemployment, recession, lockdown, a civil war, and a pandemic – yet our only plan to fight against all of this is by looking at memes. we smile, smirk, and laugh, go back to feeling lonely. that’s us. Our generation redefined love stories. we all have heard stories from our elders, how they would meet secretly after school or call on the landline and hope their lovers pick up the phone instead of their parents. but now, we hang out in cafes and clubs when we’re bored. Once upon a time, we’d fall in and fall out of love without our parents ever finding out about it. but now, it’s not true love unless you post a picture with them on the internet. We ruined the concept of lo...